savage beauty…

Even though this is an exhibition I went to a year ago, for completely different reasons, this is this a trip I find inspiring, at the time I went because my sole focus was on fashion, and even though this is still something I am interested in, I now see how it is so much more than that.

The dark romantic nature of his work is truly astounding, and I often catch myself looking back to it for inspiration, its amazing how his work transcends time and will continue to inspire millions for years to come!


René Magritte: Les amants…

The reason this painting came to mind is due to my photography, after looking at it, it reminded me of this painting I felt that the cloth over my models head added similarities between Magritte’s piece and my photography.

The painting is of two lovers enthralled by passion, but the inclusion of the fabric over their heads acts as a barrier between them, makes an act of passion into one of isolation and frustration, just how the fabric over the models head adds a barrier between her and the viewer meaning they can look into this “world” but they have no immediate access or contact to it.

 “Some have interpreted his work as a depiction of the inability to fully unveil the true nature of even our most intimate companions.”

Others find connections between his paintings and his mother’s death, “The artist was 14 when his mother committed suicide by drowning. He witnessed her body being fished from the water, her wet nightgown wrapped around her face.”

I love how something that appears to be so beautiful and loving actually has a very dark, raw backstory, his paintings have a sense of mystery and this is something I definitely wanted to have in my exhibition, I wanted people to question everything, I wanted them to have a strong emotional reaction to my piece and to really think about things.

pelle mea…

This was when I started my small (A5) brainstorm book, this is where I would quickly note down an idea that came to mind while I was out and I would just scribble it in.

I also done a few “trial” samples inside, this one I done using the Old English stencil and using my red malleable wax, the quote reads “Skin Me”, the inspiration was from a double page in my sketchbook where I showed “blood” and “skin”.

The reason for this macabre-ish phrase is to show, what people are willing to do in the sacrifice ritual in order to get what they want.

This was just a quick rough sample, but I like how raw it is and I really enjoy how the wax dried quite thick on the page, making the “blood” touchable, putting you that much closer to the event that took place.


planning my space…

Now that I have two options to choose from I have come up with two “spaces” I can have for the exhibition, they are both very similar but one of the main changes between them is the lighting and color.

If I was to just display my photographs I would do them on 3 white walls and in a well lit room, because I would want it to look clean and modern, it also means that you are given more space and time to take in the images and enjoy them for what they are.

My second idea is the Satanic ritual, for this space I would still need the 3 walls but they would be painted black and would be in a dimly lit corner of the room, you would have a wall either side of you and one at the end in front of you, this is so you “walk into” the world of Satanic worship and beliefs.

If I am lucky I will try to put them both together and add the images on the wall in the satanic corner!

candle samples…


Now that I’m starting to put my FMP together and I’m starting to get it ready for the exhibition, I’ve decided that I would make most of it at home.

I wanted to have the candles seem like they have been used, time and time again, I wanted it to have little pile-ups of wax surrounding the candle; the reason for this is because I wanted them to look like old ritual candles that had been used in several different rituals.

The way I made this possible was by lighting the candles (obviously) and by using a toothpick and dragged down the tip of the sides of the candles to make the hot wax run. I also had a little metal measuring jug that I had pre-melted wax inside and I would pour this over the burning candles.

The way I made it stick to the glass plate was to melt the base of the candle and press it onto the plate.


Overall I am very pleased with the outcomes and I feel the give off the effect I was looking for!



cast samples…

After making the candles I decided to jump straight into making the arm/hand casts, but because this is something I hadn’t done before it proved to be quite difficult. The arm was the easiest section, but the hands are what took the most effort and time.

Because the fingers were so closely spaced together I had to cut the plaster into much smaller strips to be able to fit inside the caps.

To create the mannequin hand was the hardest part, luckily there were 3 fingers that were spaced-out enough so I could cast them with ease, unfortunately the ring and middle finger were a lot harder to do.

Fortunately because these casts were meant to be remains of the dead who have been used in sacrifice, they could be missing a finger or two, but I still wanted to attempt to do at least the base of the finger instead of having a huge gap.

IMG_7011To do this I needed the assistance of my mother, because I would need her to hold things together while I made the mold, she used a thin butter knife to get in between the gaps between the fingers and I would put pressure under the strips to make the natural curves on the fingers, after doing this for about an hour we finally managed to join it all up and be finished, now all we had to do was remove it from the fiber glass arm.

Because there wasn’t a barrier between the plaster steps and the fiber glass arm, the plaster stuck and proved to be difficult to remove, this mean that we would have to cut it in half and plaster the two sides together again, this too took a while but we managed in the end.

Since the first arm took so long to do and required too much effort we decided to just use the mannequins arm for the next cast but use my mothers fingers, even though my mothers fingers were slightly larger than that of the mannequins, I like the effect it has and it also shows that these Satanists sacrificed more than one person.

We manipulated the wet plaster strips and would press/squeeze them to form vein lines to make them more realistic.


bleeding page…

When I’m doing the pages in my sketchbook, I want to make each page different than the last one, I want to be as creative as possible and I enjoy including different materials and textures, with my sketchbook I have used, fabric, latex, wax, sand paper, paint etc. I understand that depending on what materials I use it puts forward a different message, this double page I started with the notion of mortality and the human body.

The left page is to symbolize blood, and the soft (fabric) fragility of the human body especially when introduced to something such as Satan himself, since then I have painted into the white page and added red wax to the piece to show drips of “blood”.

The right page is latex form a sample I attempted earlier on, this is the “skin” once its dead, cold and stiff, I still have to decide what I want to do with this page.

I’m glad I’m starting to think differently and outside of the box.