feeling inadequate

I have found this artistic journey quite hard, and it hasn’t been anything like how I thought it would be. From the beginning I have always felt as if I was 10 steps behind everyone else. So many of the other students have been doing this for so many years and are so 100% sure on what they want and what they will do, it was intimidating to think that this foundation course was my first experience with studying art and being involved in this environment and that I was still trying to make up my mind on which major to choose.

I felt that every time I produced a piece of work, it would never be good enough and I would never compare to my peers and this was extremely difficult especially since shortly after starting the course I already had create portfolios to present to universities and to show them how “confident” I was.

It took me a while, but I feel I have improved a lot from where I started in September. There are still times where I feel I could do better but at least now I know that even though I may not be as talented as other people or be able to do certain things, I have ideas that no-one else could come up with, I make connections with industry that people didn’t even know were possible, I may not have the same thing to offer as the other students, but that doesn’t mean that what I have to offer isn’t of value or wanted!